coming back from the injury..truth, depression, and excusses

yes it has been a while! Again as a reminder beware of terrible grammar and spelling! As most of you know the night before my sons 5Th birthday party, I tore my quad muscle. It was not fun...wish I had some great story to go with the injury but nothing more then taping a piece of paper shaped like a Lego on the floor, stood up and bam! Everything flashed right before me at that moment. First thought was there goes my half Marathon in New Orleans! I paid all this money, my husband was going to join me to celebrate his Birthday, my MIL was coming from Georgia to babysit Nathan and now I am done! Our sweet neighbor, who is a doctor came over at almost 11 at night to check it out. He said he was pretty sure it was a muscle rather then a tendon which was good news...but did say it is a tough muscle to recover from. I threw myself into every possible thing I could to heal it...heat therapy, ultra sound, massage, Chiropractor...you name it I have been doing it. Oh and the hardest of all no running! This put me in a depression...I was very angry and irritable. Reality I was having a pity party for myself tears and all.
I finally had a conversation with my husband....one thing that is great about him, is that he tells it how it is. He recognized that I was depressed about it, but he also pointed out there were many things I could of done instead of running, but I gave up and made excuses to not do anything. I started to explain to him that I wanted to be toned more, but I have some phobia of weights and equipment. Let me run all day long, but when it comes to machines and weights I have this mental block. He said I am going to say it like it is " you don't want it bad enough". My first reaction was who are you to tell me that...I have been losing weight and running and meeting those goals etc. When I sat back and thought about it...he was right my ultimate goal of being in better shape, more toned, and healthier I was missing it because I made the excuse of fear! I am so grateful for this conversation and really take his advise to heart. He has worked so hard to accomplish what he wants, and he wants it bad enough that he is working for it everyday! I am glad to have someone along with me on this journey. We will continue to be healthy....and sexy for each other..lol...but most importantly great examples for our son! I am back in the game...two small runs this week hope to get a longer one in either tomorrow or Thursday.....and of course adding weight training to it! I am back and better then ever!!

Happy New Year!!

I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas and Holiday Season! Now on to a New Year. I must say that 2011 was good to my family and I.We discovered the importance of health and fitness in our lives, and it is wonderful to have the support within the family. Most importantly we are now good examples to our soon to be five year old son! I don't like the whole New Years resolution thing, but I have committed to running 500 miles this year. 3 down 497 to go..lol! I have another half marathon in New Orleans in March so this will help me prepare for this. I am excited for some of my friends who are challenging themselves as well for this fitness goal! I, like most put a few pounds on over the Holidays so this is even more motivation for me.
I am also looking forward to studying for my Ace certifications. I am ready to understand the body better, and the science of fitness. I am enjoying this new life and looking forward to continuing my journey, and accomplishing even more in 2012!